Just finished work. Btw. I love old people. Had my first customer who said she wanted to return to get glasses from me ^___^. Her granddaughter was kinda bitchy and picky, but this old lady was absolutely lovely, and I had the nicest conversation with her while the granddaughter was getting her appointment done. I try really hard to relate and talk to customers and practice my rapport and finally my different techniques and stuff paid off in this one case. (It's a delicate balance of making them comfortable enough to talk to you, or to give them enough space ^^"') Ofcourse I always stumble and sound awkward maybe with the next customer, but I they say the people who succeed are like the people who keep trying until they find something that works.
And then I came home and found out dad had sent me a tongue scraper and phone case. He got the phone case colour spot on (its really similar to the one I chose here), and I think he remembered that I needed a tongue scraper when I was back in Taiwan. Like that made my night. <3 He still knows me well as his daughter even though we don't see each other much.
And my exam is a practical exam and I've attended all the practice sessions even after the long tired days, so I guess I feel pretty okay about it. My assignment is done. It's one of those nights where consistent hard work pays off. ^______^.
Oh and I bought a scientific calculator for 30 bucks, and I'm quite happy with it because it's the same brand of my graphics calculator that I've been using for ages, so I won't have any trouble with adjusting to it.
And my exam went pretty well, I'm pretty sure I scored a solid pass, if not a decent mark. Maybe not a 7 but a 6 ish? And that's with my persistent studying nowadays, like I revise notes on the bus, I don't let myself relax until it's like absolutely pointless in any more revision. I was really slack in high school. Oh and two of my practicals finished for the semester! =D And I haven't skipped any lectures this year, or work shifts (I took a few hours off on a performance Saturday, and Ed let me have a Sat off because of an exam plus I think one of the co-workers wants more hours), nor have I skipped any dance rehearsals that I'm supposed to be at, so I'm pretty happy and proud at the moment! Past week has been kind of depressing and I do acknowledge I lose my optimism sometimes, recently more often than not, but I'm content tonight.
Goodnight kiss to you all folks! :) (yes I am learning this atm)
Hey y'all it's Anita here.
No i'm not taking weird selfies. Above is a picture from practical, and if you look closely, one of my pupils (the black part of my eye) is ginormous compared the the other eye. Can you guess which eye?
Also yay congratulations to me because the oddly rectangular photos you will be exposed to in the rest of this blog is due to my new Samsung S4! :3 Finally a smartphone which can take pictures..dun...dun...DUNNN.
Anyway I thought I'd do a general update. So pretty much lately my life is uni, work, dance, and family and boyfriend, and I guess the first 3 have their perks and downs and I guess I'll be elaborating on that today.
1. So uni.
Pros: Learning interesting stuff
Cons: Never ending stress
The eyeball is fascinating, and I'm actually really glad I chose to do optometry over animation. I think of it now, and I think, although I would be swimming away in creativity and relaxation, I think I found my dose of arts in dance now, and optom is a lot more challenging and rewarding; especially when you discover and understand something really detailed. For example, we learned that your depth perception is because of the DIFFERENCE between your two eyes. Like I guess in simple terms, the difference between what each of your eyes sees, gives the world it's 3d effect. (try closing one of your eyes and doing simple things like pouring water). Also, it explains how your eyes see different things at the same time, and the reason why (i.e. shut one eye after the other, the image moves, and it's the difference in these images that your brain translate to depth and 3d).
Also we're doing slit lamp in practical, meaning we get to see awesome things in our eyes:
Persistant pupillary membrane - common and benign
2. Work.
So we got a new practice manager at work. I guess it's really unsettling sometimes because I just got comfortable and was starting to get confident, then she comes along and she wants to change everything and most of the things I was doing previously was wrong and I have to re-learn. I also get really self-conscious of how inept I think I sound when talking to customers, because in all honesty, I am born an introvert, and when I'm at work, I try to dab in pretending I am extroverted. In reality, early in the morning when I go to uni, sometimes I walk extra slow so I don't have to talk to people because it's too tiring. Talking to people, yes, I enjoy learning about their lives and stuff and talking about things in common, but sometimes I just want to relax and not have to be judged on how awkward I am when I talk, or sometimes I'm just not comfortable talking with people, so it takes extra brainpower and is really tiring to talk to people. I am an impatient speaker and I want to get to the point, which I think can make people uncomfortable. I like to debate, discuss, and I have a very tangential way of humour. I think weird things are funny, I will admit it, and I try to keep that side as normal to people as I can. My brain is just wired weird.
3. Family
Family, I love them. I appreciate them. Lately I don't agree with a lot of things, and I lot of times I wonder if it's me who's being illogical and immature, or them who are being closed minded. I guess a dangerous aspect of my personality is that I think I'm always right, but I've been trying to work on that, as well as my apologizing and not being lazy.
4. Dance
More often than not, I feel like I'm not good enough.
I feel like an artist who can't draw what they want to draw. I have an image in my head, but it's not being represented to my content.
I've seen a lot of dancer's ego as well, although I'm starting to think it's more along the likes of artist's ego, rather than just dancers.
I guess I have to keep reminding myself I love to dance because it keeps me fit, and that it's fun and challenging, and its fun to express the music. Not because I want to be better than someone else, or prove my dancing worth to others.
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Some other pictures to entertain you guys:
Teehee. Heel buddies at a friend's recent birthday dinner.
It's been awhile so I thought I'd do a kind of update/ philosophical post while I'm still here and posting.
So pretty much lately, it'still uni holidays, so I'm trying to make the most of it. This week has been dance rehearsals and hanging out with the boyfriend, as well as eating food and trying to keep up dance practice at home. I'm trying really hard to improve my upper body coordination, as I know I can look floppy and messy sometimes (wish I had more body control xD, time will tell if it's something that can be trained well). I do have work on a couple of days, and I'm enjoying it. Although I do know the boss prefers the other employee to do sales (because that's her main strength), sometimes it does feel a little bit demoralizing when he doesn't choose me for a handover. Oh well, I suppose I can't take it personally.
Ah yes, so Happy New Years everyone!! For our family, we just celebrated with a home dinner (everyone left by 8pm lol), and I finally got to bring my boyfriend over for dinner. My nephew was so cute, because he thought boyfriend was really 'handsome', but he also asked 'why is he so black'. Bahahaha. Naah I love your skin colour if you're reading this (Y). Like dark chocolateee.
Dinner at home
Also for Christmas, Eejay decided to buy me a game-boy ds <3, and I bought myself a Pokemon game. It's been a really long while since I self-indulged in something expensive like that, but I guess it also was nice rewarding myself. As for gifts for others, I bought mom some nice clothes she can wear to Chinese School, and I bought the sister a hello kitty Polaroid camera (although I told her it included her bday present value as well...cuz it wasn't that cheap.)
Gameboy!!
Game-boy in blue, of course my favorite color. :)
Hmm what else. I guess this set of holidays wasn't as boring as the previous. I felt more busy and less bored even with all the cancellation of events and closure of shops.
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I'm not sure if I've updated you guys on the dance crew progress? But anyway, long story short, Funktion crew is no more, and now I'm in a dance crew called UNDEFINED, which is actually Eejay's old crew remade and resurrected. So we've been working on stuff, more productive than bkp in terms of quality and time, so this is our first work:
It's a different style to what I'm used to, but I enjoy the diversity, and it came out pretty good for our first work. We can only get better in terms of group synchronisation, vibe, and swag! :)
Currently bkp is working on a project that involves old kpop songs (2010 and earlier), which is nice because it appreciates some of the older, but still quality music and dance.
I think this is one of the first songs and dances that really appealed to me. Miss A was the first group I followed because they had so much energy and their dances were really creative. I liked this choreo because of the sort of...canons and the way they drag out a few of the beats and then hit them hard? It's like you're expecting them to move at a certain time and direction and beat, and they do it unexpectedly. I think that's important in good choreo, that your audience is kept unable to guess the next move, which makes it exciting and engaging on top of good visuals.
To be honest, I didn't like this song when I first watched it. And I thought the choreo looked really weird, with their hands spread when they danced? Like it looked kind of...unnatural and not sexy.
Theeen...I started learning it. And watched the second chorus. And then I started liking this, although I think it was mainly the dance, and the chick who says 'mamia' at the end of chorus becuase she is pretty dam hot. xD The dance got me more interested in the song because it's so feminine but fierce? And that's one thing with dance, is that you can put on a personality without saying a word, and this sort of sassy personality was so much fun and different to what I usually do. I still don't like the spread fingers, but I'm used to it now, and I think the non-chorus choreo (after the first chorus) is pretty strong too.
Like what Michelle Pham said, make-up is something that you can change and put on a personality with temporarily, so I think that applies for dance as well. :) And how well you pull it off in both respects is also how well it comes off as.
Okay...I don't really like this song because the choreo is hard. I like the song, and the vocals of the members are great, and the choreography is pretty hot. But...just seriously. This is opposite of Secret's Madonna, I think the dance killed the song a little bit for me because none of the moves are on the beat and it's really illogical (illogical to the point of not being able to know when to dance to parts).
But the members vocals are definitely good. I think I would be more fond of this song if I didn't learn the chorus hahaha. xD
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Oh, also, I don't know if any of my readers remember my Types of Intelligence post, but today I found an article that kind of supports my train of thought, which means I'm not completely crazy, and somewhat on mark. Although they split their classifications of intelligence much further. Which categories do you fall under?
Designates the human ability to discriminate among living things (plants, animals) as well as sensitivity to other features of the natural world (clouds, rock configurations). This ability was clearly of value in our evolutionary past as hunters, gatherers, and farmers; it continues to be central in such roles as botanist or chef. It is also speculated that much of our consumer society exploits the naturalist intelligences, which can be mobilized in the discrimination among cars, sneakers, kinds of makeup, and the like.
2. Musical Intelligence (“Musical Smart”) Musical intelligence is the capacity to discern pitch, rhythm, timbre, and tone. This intelligence enables us to recognize, create, reproduce, and reflect on music, as demonstrated by composers, conductors, musicians, vocalist, and sensitive listeners. Interestingly, there is often an affective connection between music and the emotions; and mathematical and musical intelligences may share common thinking processes. Young adults with this kind of intelligence are usually singing or drumming to themselves. They are usually quite aware of sounds others may miss.
3. Logical-Mathematical Intelligence (Number/Reasoning Smart) Logical-mathematical intelligence is the ability to calculate, quantify, consider propositions and hypotheses, and carry out complete mathematical operations. It enables us to perceive relationships and connections and to use abstract, symbolic thought; sequential reasoning skills; and inductive and deductive thinking patterns. Logical intelligence is usually well developed in mathematicians, scientists, and detectives. Young adults with lots of logical intelligence are interested in patterns, categories, and relationships. They are drawn to arithmetic problems, strategy games and experiments.
4.Existential Intelligence Sensitivity and capacity to tackle deep questions about human existence, such as the meaning of life, why do we die, and how did we get here.
5. Interpersonal Intelligence (People Smart”) Interpersonal intelligence is the ability to understand and interact effectively with others. It involves effective verbal and nonverbal communication, the ability to note distinctions among others, sensitivity to the moods and temperaments of others, and the ability to entertain multiple perspectives. Teachers, social workers, actors, and politicians all exhibit interpersonal intelligence. Young adults with this kind of intelligence are leaders among their peers, are good at communicating, and seem to understand others’ feelings and motives.
6. Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence (“Body Smart”) Bodily kinesthetic intelligence is the capacity to manipulate objects and use a variety of physical skills. This intelligence also involves a sense of timing and the perfection of skills through mind–body union. Athletes, dancers, surgeons, and craftspeople exhibit well-developed bodily kinesthetic intelligence.
7. Linguistic Intelligence (Word Smart) Linguistic intelligence is the ability to think in words and to use language to express and appreciate complex meanings. Linguistic intelligence allows us to understand the order and meaning of words and to apply meta-linguistic skills to reflect on our use of language. Linguistic intelligence is the most widely shared human competence and is evident in poets, novelists, journalists, and effective public speakers. Young adults with this kind of intelligence enjoy writing, reading, telling stories or doing crossword puzzles.
8. Intra-personal Intelligence (Self Smart”) Intra-personal intelligence is the capacity to understand oneself and one’s thoughts and feelings, and to use such knowledge in planning and directioning one’s life. Intra-personal intelligence involves not only an appreciation of the self, but also of the human condition. It is evident in psychologist, spiritual leaders, and philosophers. These young adults may be shy. They are very aware of their own feelings and are self-motivated.
9. Spatial Intelligence (“Picture Smart”) Spatial intelligence is the ability to think in three dimensions. Core capacities include mental imagery, spatial reasoning, image manipulation, graphic and artistic skills, and an active imagination. Sailors, pilots, sculptors, painters, and architects all exhibit spatial intelligence. Young adults with this kind of intelligence may be fascinated with mazes or jigsaw puzzles, or spend free time drawing or daydreaming.
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Anyway that's all from me tonight! Might do a little bit of exercise soon. Goodnight lovelies. <3
Author's note: I've actually felt kind of demotivated lately, even with dance, and I was just going through my blog posts and I found this draft post that I never published. I think I'm just going to publish it now because it helps me remember my motivation, and hopefully I can share it with my readers so that motivation stays around even when I can't see it.
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What is dance to me?
Dance keeps me sane.
Why?
Dance....it will never judge you, it will never offend you, hurt your feelings. It is always there as something that you can always choose how much you want to challenge yourself with.
When you feel tired, you can always just enjoy muscle memory.
When you feel like challenging yourself a little, you can learn something easy, or drilling something you're familiar with.
When you feel like challenging yourself a lot, you can learn something you're unfamiliar with, or something complicated, and difficult.
When you feel like pushing your creativity,
With dance...you can choose the emotions you want to feel. You can feel sexy, you can feel swag, you can feel adept, you can feel beautiful, you can feel powerful...and you can share that overwhelming emotion with both your mind and body.
It will never give up on you. Like any dream, it will be there for you, and wait for you, no matter how long, or when.
I just hope I can achieve what I want...with the time I have.
So I do realize it has been awhile since I've blogged, so I guess the custom is to say 'apologies', but to be honest, when I see people post things on their pages, youtubes, or walls or deviantart journal entries saying 'Sorry I haven't uploaded anything lately!', doesn't usually phase me that much.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just weird. xD
I'm pretty sure I do think in a rather quirky train of thought a lot of the time so....yeah.
So this journal entry is actually the one I started on for the 'Eyeball' aka, the optometry ball for uni. I know this because I have some photos I've saved onto this entry to kind of bookmark myself in my little hiatus:
(side note....editing the photo positions reminds me how bad blogger.com's photo placementing is T_T so annoying)
Friends awl dressed up
I went for a red-lip look~!
In all honesty...it actually wasn't that fun. xD It was really just everyone dressed up, looking pretty, and then trying to take as many photos as possible before makeup wears off and eyes and faces get red. It reminded me a little bit of my high school formal. The DJ was pretty crap because all he played was like....heavy rap? And it's like...everyone is dressed so classy...but should be doing grungie hip-hop dancing or something. Oh, and the fire alarm went off in the middle because of the smoke effect machines.
More fotos~!
Main of the night! Chicken...something
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So yeah, I'm trying to think of what is in between Eyeball and now, whilst being concise. xD Pretty much the last few months have been really hard core uni. Like I've never been so stressed in my life, because 2nd year is seriously....icky. I talked to a graduated 5th year and she said that 'If you can get through second year, you can get through all the other years."
Like...I do feel like I am smart , but then...in comparison to everyone else, I do also feel like I am retarded and kinda dumb. T_T. The content is hard...and I've kind of accepted the fact that because I think artistically/quirky/retardedly (however you would like to put it), I don't usually think logically...WHICH DOESN'T HELP IN MATHS AT ALL. =.=
This was the week Mom was away, and Sister bought food yay. I was a hermit at home studying~
Yeah, Ophthalmic optics is a bish.
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Oh, I also got really into dance. It was around midsems that we had a performance...and I was seriously stressed because the organizer (owner...well now ex-owner) of the dance studio/crew was also quite disorganized. Like we learned and performed one section of the dances THREE DAYS BEFORE. T_T. To put that in perspective, dance is a lot of muscle memory when you want to perform, so it's like memorizing a piano piece 3 days before your recital.
Here's our final performance:
It was a really unforgettable experience, although there were a lot of problems. I'm not going to go into much detail about the problems, but long story short, the studio is closed now, and Eejay and I have decided to cut off present and future ties and dependence on the ex-owner because he just wasn't responsible enough. I do miss dancing at the studio, but just, not worth it.
To be honest, I wonder how big of a portion dance will take up in my life now. I guess performing like that...and training like that...really appealed to some dormant dream of mine. But in reality, I think dance will end up being a hobby to keep me fit and maybe invest in, whereas my main source of income and....perhaps fulfillment will be with optometry.
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I actually forgot what it's called...but it's the thing you use to mark the center of your lens so that when you cut it, the center is in the right position in the frame.
Speaking of optom, I got a job at an glasses company! I really love work at the moment because it is both challenging, educational, and the team there is absolutely lovely. There's so much to learn, like there's so many categories and additions and exceptions to each facet of the business, which, along with customer rapport, would probably be the most challenging aspects fr me at the moment.
Like for the lenses, there's basically 3 types. Single vision, bifocals and progressives (aka transitions, but not the photo chromatic ones). I always thought transitions were just the photo chromatic ones, but all the customers refer to progressives as transitions...so as a saleschick I have the responsibility to confirm with them so I don't mess it up. xD
I'll break it down simpler.
Single vision: one aspect i.e. near or far focus
Bifocals: two aspects, i.e. both near and far focus Progressive: multiple aspects i.e. near graduated to far focus
Simple right? WRONG.
There are like...8 subtypes for each of the 3 listed above, like different lens types, different brands, different coatings...and different prices for every single one.
Oh, and all the private insurance numbers and companies...like to claim you have to enter a whole bunch of different codes for each aspect of the glasses i.e. lens, frame, coating, etc.
Ugh. And there's a lot of technique and natural talent to the sales aspect as well, because in order for the customer to feel comfortable enough with the product and spending that...bigger amount of money, you have to be able to work your wording and comfort around them.
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Anyway, have a random pic of the week! Weather's been crazy around here lately, hailstorms and everything. That's all for me at this point in time.
Today I want to ramble about more philosophical brain blerghs. =D
The one for today is the ability to Reinterpret the World.
We usually are programmed to live in a negative and competitve world, but that doesn't mean we have to adhere to such standards.
What does this mean?
Well in my opinion, I reckon reinterpreting the world around you, especially the people and words around you, is a very important skill to keep yourself happy and content with the world. If you reinterpret things with negative connotations, it generally puts yourself at a happier state of mind yeah? And it's always good to have a happier state of mind because it will improve your health mentally, physically, and in the relationships with people around you; including friends and family.
The way I see it, there are different levels of reinterpretation.
What do you see?
(image from google)
1. Negative interpretation (Pessimists, I'm talking to you)
2. Connotative interpretation.
3. Indifferent/Neutral interpretation
4. Benefit of the doubt interpretation
5. Positive interpretation/ empathetic (Optimists ! :))
I reckon most people usually fit under 1-3, with 2 probably being more common.
So let me sort the categories into interpretations of the saying, "The glass is half full, or half empty." With more extremes of course.
1. Glass is half empty. Who the hell took the water, greedy bitch.
2. Hmm. Well I left this glass of water on the table and it's half gone, so someone probably drank it.
3. Oh, the glass isn't the same as before. Whatever, I'll just get a new one/ Kk...whatever.
4. Wow, someone must have been pretty thirsty.
5. Oh hey, there's still water left. Yusss win!. :)
So I find that this sort of interpretation can really influence a person's outlook on life. I find that people who mainly reside in categories 4-5 have the most stable mindsets, and can deal with most situations without any negative impact to their health.
Allow me to elaborate. =D
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4-5: So yes. Categories 4-5. I am trying to live in this category, because in all honesty, nothing can can shake you once you're in such a positive mindset. Try to think of any situation, and you have the ability to twist it so that it's optimistic and positive. You have the ability to always view people in the most positive light and empathizing with people for being people and having dreams, goals, and normal human desires.
For example:
Road rage-someone cuts front of you and you almost crash into them.
4. Wow maybe they're just being silly today.
Road rage
5. Wow, that was really lucky that nothing happened. I hope that person is okay, they must be distracted with something, or maybe something really serious happened and they're in a rush. Or maybe they're having a really bad day and not really focusing on being the best driver they can be.
Negative confrontation-someone calls you a bitch.
4. Wow, they must be having a bad day.
5. Hmm. I wonder what's up with them today. Maybe something bad happened, maybe they're really stressed. I hope they're okay.
For those in category 4, they may not have such strong optimism, but they are willing to think things from another angle, whereas for category 5, they show a deeper empathy and caring and just optimism. Category 5 is no longer revolving around healing yourself, but healing the world around you.
3. I reckon this category is for the people who just turn off their emotions. I was probably mainly in this category for awhile, especially during my parents' divorce. I refused to feel anything because the negative connotation was to great. Although I did try to reach for category 4 when thinking about the situation, and I think I eventually reached category 5.
This category is alright in the sense of mental health that you don't feel those sorts of negative emotions. I guess the problem with this category is that you don't deal with your emotions, you're not going anywhere. You're just static because you refuse to be dragged backwards, but you're not moving forwards with positive energy either. You're neither improving nor regressing the situation. These sorts of people probably avoid the situation altogether usually, and distract themselves with something else; be it gaming or art or whatever. The good thing about this category is that it's midway between having a positive and negative mindset, so if you push yourself a little bit optimistically, you could develop a pretty stable mindset.
1-2. Those who fit under categories 1-2 often end up feeling a lot of unnecessary negativity towards people and life, which also end up damaging themselves. Like they feel more self-pity that the other categories, which drags them down moving forward and strongly in life. For example, if someone called you a 'bitch', categories 1-2 would immediately respond with anger and probably reflect that same negativity back to the person who said it to them. They'd probably respond with something along the lines of 'Excuse me a$$whole?'. And thus would create a lot of negative emotion which would damage their lives in general. If you're feeling shit, you're likely to share it with the people around you, and if those people are also categories 1-2, they'll also start feeling shit, and then it just becomes a black hole of negativity. Ew.
If only all the category 1-2 people could find and follow this sign, world would be a happier place. :)
In regards to 2., these people can also interpret things positively. However, the circumstance has to be almost undeniably positive.
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My point of this post is...lighten up people! Life is too short to be unhappy and negative, and I hope that anyone who takes the time to read this post might be able to take some optimism with them, because I feel like having an optimistic mindset is such a light and freeing feeling. It makes life a lot happier and a lot more worth living, and I really want to share that feeling with everyone.
Lots of love ~ till next time !
Aneeta out~...watch the video below and laugh a little. :)
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And appreciate art. I love the creativity in the video below. :)
Back to studies ! But also balancing new commitments. :3
A lot has happened since my last proper update...I guess for my readers, read onto your own discretion? I don't know how appropriate it is to go into detail about personal life...when it's bad I suppose. But I guess from now on, I'm trying a stronger approach to sharing the good things in life. Sharing happiness and success and all that good and optimistic stuff because seriously, in life, do you really want to waste your time being angry or mad or depressed or sad or regretful? Ain't nobody got time for that. ^^
For myself...I know I've made some mistakes and hurt people along the way. I apologize, and as good and moralistic of a person as I try to be, I do have some pretty big flaws. Well, depending on your definition of flaw I suppose. Like what may be a flaw to one person, might be perfectly neutral, acceptable, or even looked up to by another.
Although I'm not trying to talk myself out. I do admit I've done some things I'm not proud of, but in the end, I can only work on from here on out to become a better person, and learn from my mistakes. Like what Rafiki said, are you going to dwell on the hurt in the past, or just learn from it.
I'm prepared to face the consequences of my actions with full commitment and energy. Always positive energy towards the good or bad consequences.
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So lately I've been doing a lot of dancing. xD On top of uni things. I've sort of distanced myself from my previous activities for a bit and just focused on dance...because of personal issues and plus I has no monies. =.= My work place closed down...fml. It was pretty funny because my boss messaged me on fb chat...which in the past usually meant he wanted to call me in to do a shift, but instead he was like, "Oh by the way, just letting you know we closed down yesterday night."
And I was like....the faaq?
I'm kind of sad ! Because it was my first work...and I learned a lot from that job. Like seriously, I feel a bit of nostalgia. I remember when I first started working there in year 10 as a work experience for free...and I was so nervous, and really over achieving. I'd get really anxious when I had to talk to anyone, and had to muster up so much courage just to greet customers because I was so shy. Thus the job really expanded my comfort zones in social environments. Like I used to walk home smiling because I was so proud that I actually....talked to people and made conversation with randoms LOL. Later on in the years I got pretty comfortable...but yeah.
Gonna miss these
I also learned how to balance work and other commitments...like I used to always think that the bossman was king of the world, and I should do everything to suck up to him? Like...not legit, but I thought I was supposed to show him an undeniable respect...or something. Maybe it was from watching too many Asian dramas...or something. Then I learned later on that a good employee relationship means that the worker also can have rights and decline things...without being fired or whatever? It sounds silly but it's true. xD Like...it's so easy to give yourself completely and give too much for something you want to work towards and progress with, but if you give yourself too much, then people will take you for granted. That applies to all relationships, not just work relationships as well.
So easy to just...want to give all the time. But in the end it will bite you in the ass.
I also learned that hard work pays off. Like if you work hard, your boss might not notice everyday, but when he does, it gradually builds up your work...like...dignity and honor and reliability. And then you start going from just getting paid to actually wanting to do your best because you have that sort of employer's relationship where you want good things for him too xD And sales no longer just become the boss's, but your own. Like from achieving something for someone else to achieving something for yourself at the same time.
Gonna miss this view :(
But yeah. Sadly unemployed at the moment, and it's so hard to find a job via resumes these days. :( Monies zzz. At the moment I actually do want to work maybe a couple days a week so I can have my own spending and saving up money...but at this rate, I might have to end up going for youth allowance. I actually would prefer work, but ironically youth allowance is more available than jobs at the moment? =.=. And I feel kind of bad when my mom gives me allowance...because you feel more free to spend the money you earn, rather than the money people give you.
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Anyway the fun part of my update is all the dance I'm doing now. :) LIKE MY NEW SHIRT GUYS.
:o filming !
Loljks that's not me. xD Meet Jay Park !
Naah that pic was for filming a promotional video for Function Crew/ FO Studios, which is a new dance studio/group that I joined recently...mostly courtesy of JP above. It was mainly because of bkpfm that I ended up being a part of Function crew. I think it was because I stayed back late one day to practice because I was really motivated that day...and met Boss Psy and Jay and was offered to join and I was pretty keen as beans so. =D
Now instead of my weekends being full of what to do, I'm usually dancing both days and maybe a day or two during the week. It's really exciting because it's finally dancing towards something, rather than dancing as a hobby at home and hoping there would be an opportunity one day to explore it. I'm really glad I threw myself out there and joined bkp because I'm not just waiting for an opportunity now, I'm living it, and I feel so lucky. Sometimes it's easy to forget and take things for granted, but in all complete honesty, I am so lucky to have met these people. Out of the blue. Dropped out the sky. I don't know what I did to deserve such luck, but I promise I will make the most of it.
Boss Psy (left) and Camera man =D Cameraman's wife is so cute by the way.
At the moment, the songs/choreo have been decided for a September performance...and I'm pretty excited to start practicing. The only thing that kind of sucks at the moment is I can actually feel the amount of dancing taking a toll on my body sometimes? Like I guess in the past I kind of took my body for granted and just assumed that its' energy would be limitless as long as I had the mental motivation. However, some days I actually do feel like...a bit weird in the knees...like maybe slight overuse? :( So sometimes even though I actually do just want to dance full out, I take it easy and just watch choreo videos or do something else. I wish I could just dance full out all the time, but I guess I also realise more now how dancers need to take care of their bodies if it's going to last me the rest of my life.
Have a look at some of the routines/choreo that we're going to be performing for Function Crew:
Yay I finally have an opportunity to learn and practice a girly dance xD
New...crazy sw@g song
So sexy <3
etc...there's some others, but guess you'll have to be there to find out. :) Ahh so much to learn!
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Freaking DA and ophthalmic optics =.=
Hmm. Oh and uni I suppose. Second semester yay! *sarcasm*. This semester we're doing 3 course specific (i.e. optometry) subjects, and pharmacology. Apparently 2nd semester is supposed to be the hardest...but who knows aye. Although I do have to say the equations and calculations for visual science are really annoying...and of course the lecturer would decide to put the first 3 weeks of slides on a blue pdf background file. So naturally my printer tried to shit itself so I ended up just trying to take really cruddy notes because I'm a stingey Asian with no job and I don't want to pay for coloured printing.
I hope everyone does well. There's a 3rd year who's taking visual science again...so I guess this semester might be as hard as everyone says it out to be.
Oh well. I just need to balance things out I guess. And I think I have more motivation to force myself to study now and focus because I don't want to cut down my dancing time because I was busy catching up with my studies, nor do I want to feel guilty about dancing because of studies.
I think I've decided to drop badminton for the time being though, in order to keep up all my commitments. Like I've got uni, fo dance, bkp dance, lion dance, relationships, and badminton and study time to balance...and I think at the moment I'm gaining least from badminton? Baddie costs money, and it's not as fun as it used to be because there's less people who go now, which means we don't get our little break times to practice cover dances or socialise like we used to. And also, it's not like I really want to achieve anything with baddie it the future, it was mainly paying money for casual exercise and socialization. Freeing up Tuesdays should ease out my time a bit more; and give me some time to just chill at home or do things I want to such as game, blog, or clean.
Ah I'm so sleepy. Probably going to go take a nap after I finish the entry. I woke up at 6am this morning to finish off my graded tutorial questions for pharmacology.
Speaking of sleeping and waking up, I think I prefer Morocca over Nescafe! I reckon Nescafe has a more...like burnt coffee flavour to it.
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Anyway I'm pretty sleepy now, so I shall leave you with my uni style at the moment. xD I really couldn't be bothered to put in my contacts this morning because I'm to the point where I'm comfortable enough with my uni friends that I can just be comfortable with what I wear, rather than looking good.
We've got our optometry ball coming up soon, which should be heaps fun. Sigh, need to stop eating crap so my skin can be as clear as it can be.
Anyway, thanks for reading, till next time folks! Remember to stay positive, hardworking, and smile. =3
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