General Update ~

Hey folks~

Blogger's note: 

Back to studies ! But also balancing new commitments. :3

A lot has happened since my last proper update...I guess for my readers, read onto your own discretion? I don't know how appropriate it is to go into detail about personal life...when it's bad I suppose. But I guess from now on, I'm trying a stronger approach to sharing the good things in life. Sharing happiness and success and all that good and optimistic stuff because seriously, in life, do you really want to waste your time being angry or mad or depressed or sad or regretful? Ain't nobody got time for that. ^^

For myself...I know I've made some mistakes and hurt people along the way. I apologize, and as good and moralistic of a person as I try to be, I do have some pretty big flaws. Well, depending on your definition of flaw I suppose. Like what may be a flaw to one person, might be perfectly neutral, acceptable, or even looked up to by another.

Although I'm not trying to talk myself out. I do admit I've done some things I'm not proud of, but in the end, I can only work on from here on out to become a better person, and learn from my mistakes. Like what Rafiki said, are you going to dwell on the hurt in the past, or just learn from it.

I'm prepared to face the consequences of my actions with full commitment and energy. Always positive energy towards the good or bad consequences. 

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So lately I've been doing a lot of dancing. xD On top of uni things. I've sort of distanced myself from my previous activities for a bit and just focused on dance...because of personal issues and plus I has no monies. =.= My work place closed down...fml. It was pretty funny because my boss messaged me on fb chat...which in the past usually meant he wanted to call me in to do a shift, but instead he was like, "Oh by the way, just letting you know we closed down yesterday night."

And I was like....the faaq?


I'm kind of sad ! Because it was my first work...and I learned a lot from that job. Like seriously, I feel a bit of nostalgia. I remember when I first started working there in year 10 as a work experience for free...and I was so nervous, and really over achieving. I'd get really anxious when I had to talk to anyone, and had to muster up so much courage just to greet customers because I was so shy. Thus the job really expanded my comfort zones in social environments. Like I used to walk home smiling because I was so proud that I actually....talked to people and made conversation with randoms LOL. Later on in the years I got pretty comfortable...but yeah.

Gonna miss these 

I also learned how to balance work and other commitments...like I used to always think that the bossman was king of the world, and I should do everything to suck up to him? Like...not legit, but I thought I was supposed to show him an undeniable respect...or something. Maybe it was from watching too many Asian dramas...or something. Then I learned later on that a good employee relationship means that the worker also can have rights and decline things...without being fired or whatever? It sounds silly but it's true. xD Like...it's so easy to give yourself completely and give too much for something you want to work towards and progress with, but if you give yourself too much, then people will take you for granted. That applies to all relationships, not just work relationships as well.

So easy to just...want to give all the time. But in the end it will bite you in the ass.

I also learned that hard work pays off. Like if you work hard, your boss might not notice everyday, but when he does, it gradually builds up your work...like...dignity and honor and reliability. And then you start going from just getting paid to actually wanting to do your best because you have that sort of employer's relationship where you want good things for him too xD And sales no longer just become the boss's, but your own. Like from achieving something for someone else to achieving something for yourself at the same time.

Gonna miss this view :( 

But yeah. Sadly unemployed at the moment, and it's so hard to find a job via resumes these days. :( Monies zzz. At the moment I actually do want to work maybe a couple days a week so I can have my own spending and saving up money...but at this rate, I might have to end up going for youth allowance. I actually would prefer work, but ironically youth allowance is more available than jobs at the moment? =.=. And I feel kind of bad when my mom gives me allowance...because you feel more free to spend the money you earn, rather than the money people give you.

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 Anyway the fun part of my update is all the dance I'm doing now. :) LIKE MY NEW SHIRT GUYS.

:o filming !

Loljks that's not me. xD Meet Jay Park !

Naah that pic was for filming a promotional video for Function Crew/ FO Studios, which is a new dance studio/group that I joined recently...mostly courtesy of JP above. It was mainly because of bkpfm that I ended up being a part of Function crew. I think it was because I stayed back late one day to practice because I was really motivated that day...and met Boss Psy and Jay and was offered to join and I was pretty keen as beans so. =D

Now instead of my weekends being full of what to do, I'm usually dancing both days and maybe a day or two during the week. It's really exciting because it's finally dancing towards something, rather than dancing as a hobby at home and hoping there would be an opportunity one day to explore it. I'm really glad I threw myself out there and joined bkp because I'm not just waiting for an opportunity now, I'm living it, and I feel so lucky. Sometimes it's easy to forget and take things for granted, but in all complete honesty, I am so lucky to have met these people. Out of the blue. Dropped out the sky. I don't know what I did to deserve such luck, but I promise I will make the most of it. 

Boss Psy (left) and Camera man =D Cameraman's wife is so cute by the way. 

At the moment, the songs/choreo have been decided for a September performance...and I'm pretty excited to start practicing. The only thing that kind of sucks at the moment is I can actually feel the amount of dancing taking a toll on my body sometimes? Like I guess in the past I kind of took my body for granted and just assumed that its' energy would be limitless as long as I had the mental motivation. However, some days I actually do feel like...a bit weird in the knees...like maybe slight overuse? :( So sometimes even though I actually do just want to dance full out, I take it easy and just watch choreo videos or do something else. I wish I could just dance full out all the time, but I guess I also realise more now how dancers need to take care of their bodies if it's going to last me the rest of my life.

Have a look at some of the routines/choreo that we're going to be performing for Function Crew:

Yay I finally have an opportunity to learn and practice a girly dance xD

New...crazy sw@g song

So sexy <3 

etc...there's some others, but guess you'll have to be there to find out. :) Ahh so much to learn!

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Freaking DA and ophthalmic optics =.=

Hmm. Oh and uni I suppose. Second semester yay! *sarcasm*. This semester we're doing 3 course specific (i.e. optometry) subjects, and pharmacology. Apparently 2nd semester is supposed to be the hardest...but who knows aye. Although I do have to say the equations and calculations for visual science are really annoying...and of course the lecturer would decide to put the first 3 weeks of slides on a blue pdf background file. So naturally my printer tried to shit itself so I ended up just trying to take really cruddy notes because I'm a stingey Asian with no job and I don't want to pay for coloured printing.

I hope everyone does well. There's a 3rd year who's taking visual science again...so I guess this semester might be as hard as everyone says it out to be.

Oh well. I just need to balance things out I guess. And I think I have more motivation to force myself to study now and focus because I don't want to cut down my dancing time because I was busy catching up with my studies, nor do I want to feel guilty about dancing because of studies.

I think I've decided to drop badminton for the time being though, in order to keep up all my commitments. Like I've got uni, fo dance, bkp dance, lion dance, relationships, and badminton and study time to balance...and I think at the moment I'm gaining least from badminton? Baddie costs money, and it's not as fun as it used to be because there's less people who go now, which means we don't get our little break times to practice cover dances or socialise like we used to. And also, it's not like I really want to achieve anything with baddie it the future, it was mainly paying money for casual exercise and socialization. Freeing up Tuesdays should ease out my time a bit more; and give me some time to just chill at home or do things I want to such as game, blog, or clean.

Ah I'm so sleepy. Probably going to go take a nap after I finish the entry. I woke up at 6am this morning to finish off my graded tutorial questions for pharmacology.

Speaking of sleeping and waking up, I think I prefer Morocca over Nescafe! I reckon Nescafe has a more...like burnt coffee flavour to it.

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Anyway I'm pretty sleepy now, so I shall leave you with my uni style at the moment. xD I really couldn't be bothered to put in my contacts this morning because I'm to the point where I'm comfortable enough with my uni friends that I can just be comfortable with what I wear, rather than looking good.

We've got our optometry ball coming up soon, which should be heaps fun. Sigh, need to stop eating crap so my skin can be as clear as it can be.

Anyway, thanks for reading, till next time folks! Remember to stay positive, hardworking, and smile. =3

P, out~!